Saturday, July 11, 2009

It's been just about a year since my last post. Yeah, I'm really good at this blogging thing. Our computer doesn't work well - don't ever use ours at home - just this one at work when I'm off the clock.

Yesterday, I had such a rough day...started out with taking Kell's dog, Abby to the vet for check-up and shots. They had quoted me a fee then it was almost twice as much. No big deal, right? We had the money set aside for it, no big deal, right? But I was so angry and so puzzled at my anger. I went home and the tears started coming and didn't stop for most of the day, just on and off waterworks.

I can't put my finger on why exactly the incident made me so sad, so angry, so intensely missing my daughter......but this was her precious Abby. And Kelly always was with Abby at all her appointments and held her during the shots, etc. This four-legged legacy to us gives us such comfort and so many smiles at laughter at her silliness, playfulness, joy at seeing us whenever we return home - no matter how short the time apart. She is a joy - just as her "Mommy" was.

Today the tears aren't so prevalent. Had a few in the morning as I do each day. The reality sets in as the day begins - another day without seeing her sweet smile or hearing her voice. Sigh.

But generally we are doing well. Molly and Rose bring such joy, so much life to Don and I - we love them to pieces. We are excited about their trip to Seattle to see Mars and Trav and the boys - excited about our trip to Seattle in August to spend a precious "mini-vacation" with them.

I am reading through the Bible this year - half through already - and absolutely loving it. This is my second time through and this book is tops on my recommended reading for everyone. Amazing words, amazing comfort, amazing stories, amazing blessing from reading God's Word. How He blesses me in this endeavor. What a good God.

Well, I'm tired of writing already. Hmmm, not the best blogger - no pictures or nothin' on this site. Someday, I'll learn how to do that.

Love you all - God's blessing on you today.

2 comments:

pysanki.blogspot.com said...

I think of you and your family so much. Sam currently has an imaginary little brother who she calls Kelly. Every time she says she wants to go to Kelly's house the only Kelly I'm able to picute is yours. I hope you have a great mini-vacation in Seattle.

Ross said...

Dear Patty,

I completely missed your post. Just happened to click on the link today and it is September...

I was driving home from work today and unexpectedly started to cry. I missed Kelly so much today.

The feelings come and go. For the most part, the sadness isn't as intense and I feel such joy and gratitude for the love Kelly brought to my life.

Kelly left such a legacy of love to all of us. She is never far from my thoughts.

I love you all very much.

Wish I could give you a big hug.